A Glass of Whine

Life is difficult, nothing is perfect, people are dirty, smelly and stupid, and shit happens.

That's how it is. The sooner I accept these things as a part of reality, the better I'm gonna feel and the easier it'll be for me to live my life.

This blog has allowed me to complain and whine and, to a certain extent, even reinforced the whiner in me. Even when I'm not writing anything here, or thinking of writing anything here, my mind whines...and it whines like a bitch.

Certainly this spells no good, 'coz if I keep on whining, then I'll be like so many bitch-ass men out there who are always complaining about something without actually doing anything. But of course a bigger bitch would only whine about himself because that's what being a bitch means.

Bitches!

Kruk krak.

Aku kepak jari-jari aku.

Hari ini aku sedikit lapang, cukup lapang untuk duduk di depan sebuah komputer dan mengadap monitor menatap halaman kosong blog ini. Jadi aku duduk, dan termenung sekejap memikirkan apa yang nak aku tulis. Rasanya aku suka menulis, rasanya macam ada banyak perkara yang hendak aku tulis tapi kadang-kadang macam tak ada benda pula yang nak diluahkan di sini...mungkin perlahan-lahan aku sudah jadi kurang peduli...tapi mungkin juga tidak. I dunno, you know?

Kalau tak salah aku, aku boleh mula ber-blogging kerana aku tak puas hati dengan perkara yang berlaku di sekeliling aku, perkara-perkara yang are both very Malaysian and very irritating. Contohnya, buang sampah merata-rata, semangat membabihutan tak bertempat, mentaliti aku saja betul, pemikiran sempit ala 'aku saja betul', tak ada toleransi, samseng taik kucing (atau minyak, tapi aku rasa kucing lebih sesuai digunakan disini), dan lain-lain yang boleh dihumban masuk ke dalam lubang kategori yang sama.

Sepatutnya lubang ini dikambus awal-awal lagi, tapi tidak, mungkin kerana ramai yang sukakan baunya, kiranya macam acquired taste-lah. Benda yang sebenarnya busuk dan tak sedap, tapi kerana sudah biasa lama-lama jadi suka, macam kamu suka hidu bau stokin sendiri, suka kan? sedap? tapi sebenarnya busuk, betul tak?

Perkara terkini yang buat aku rasa cukup meluat adalah ini. Apa ni? Aiya! Some of you people out there are strongly opinionated and may think what I'm gonna say is wrong and that she (the dead girl) deserved it, I say fuck you!

I blame the society wholly...the society and the dead girl's dumbfuck boyfriend. I blame the boyfriend for having sexual intercourse without protection, pergi belajar biologi dulu la wei! And the society for not being forgiving bila ada gadis-gadis muda termengandung. You wanna fret, you wanna be mad, do it before she starts having sex ie: before she leaves home, ajar la pasal sex, jangan diam je sebab malu-malu Melayu konon. Once dah termengandung, it's no longer time to fret or be mad, take her in and then discuss and decide what to do next. The pregnancy can always be aborted or perhaps better still, the baby can be properly adopted by one of the many childless couples here around the country.

But no, such is not the case, our people are always crazy about all things 'haram'. Chief among them "anak haram", takut sungguh jadinya. C'mon lah, anak tu manusia, biologically, fully, entirely (and whatever other-ly) human! Please goddammit point out the haram part in the child for me, because seriously, I'm freakin curious.

Haih..

O society as a whole, I spit into your eyes and stomp your balls with hatred and disgust! Ptuih!